(I originally started typing this post out before my yoga this morning, however I got very distracted, then even more distracted -I’m easily distracted, one of my many talents 😛 – and completely forgot I was in the middle of writing this post!)
“Hope is brightest when it dawns from fears.”– Walter Scott
Getting our Monday motivation on can be incredibly difficult, especially if you are anything like me and tend to experience the “Monday Blues” no matter how sunny it is outside. However where I have been making it my mission to change the way I think, in the hopes of changing the way I feel and function, I’ve been trying to find ways/things I can do to change when I am feeling…Off.
The main thing I have implemented into my daily life in the hopes of keeping myself, somewhat balanced in myself, is morning yoga. Every morning I am trying to get through a yoga routine. You can read in more depths the benefits I gain from doing morning yoga by clicking, HERE. Last week I changed my yoga routine up a bit to something a little more challenging.
I’ve also cut down my chocolate intake, cut down on my cups of tea and more or less no longer drink coffee. I’m still missing breakfast, and this month hasn’t been my proudest for my weight as I’ve lost quiet a bit of weight again, instead of gaining. I’m taking steps to getting my body and myself used to breakfast. I’m both disappointed and…a little relieved? I’m still fighting through and figuring out my emotions when it comes to self changes, both within myself and my body.
This, Monday, I have managed to get through one of my yoga practice and already feel 10x better. I plan on having a bowl of fruit and a homemade smoothie for breakfast this morning. I’m also going to be spending the say making more candles and wax melts, ready for my release date.
Tomorrow I’ll be posting my long awaited hair clip review for @Linziclip which I am super excited to share with you all. I’ve never really been one for playing around with my hair, because its weird thickness and texture and add in that it has a mind of its own, products, hair clips, straighteners or curlers, nothing ever worked on it! That was of course until I came across Linziclip hair clamp clips!
I’m also starting each day off with a positive, a motivational and inspirational quote, to get the positive vibes kick started and as soon as the weather is less…wet, I’ll be able to go on more walks and jogs.
Over the weekend I spent a day babysitting and decided to bake with the kids to keep them entertained and to give them something else that they can learn to do and feel a sense of accomplishment from, not to mention baking is just so much fun! And you get a tasty treat at the end of it! This weekend we decided to make a colourful unicorn themed cake, not only did it taste amazing, but it looked amazing too! I couldn’t be prouder of them for the cake they created! I barely had to do anything, I mainly just stood (sang along with songs) and supervised them and handled the oven part. (pictures of the cake below!)
Besides baking cakes with kids, my little sister has taken on my love for baking and when I went to see my mother the other day I was greeted to a home baked brownie, that tasted better than any store bought brownie you’ve ever come across, nothing will beat a home baked desert (other than home cooked food).
I have a lot to get through today but I’m also going to be making a stronger point to take little breaks, to do things differently and take a step back when necessary. When blogging you can come across some amazing people! But it can also unfortunately lead you to some… trouble people.
This year since starting my blog, my 6 to 7 year long internet troll has been trying to take on some of my traits, some of my personality, she has take my ideas and ran with them herself, she has gotten her family and friends and I assume “partner” too, to stalk my social medias as well as my blog posts. She has copied my life from the highs all the way down to the lows, she has turned my positives into negatives and taken my negatives and used them for her own personal gain an attention. However I have not let her or her crazy and her unhealthy obsession with me and my life get to me, I am still pursuing MY dreams and creating the life I WANT. And through continuing creating the life I want, I hope that she see that trying to be someone else doesn’t full fill you or give you the things you seek.
Being true to yourself takes courage and I hope that some day you’ll gain the courage to be true to yourself, rather than living behind a mask that is my life. But just know that I will not be stopping my blog because of you, I will not delete my social media because of you, I will not stop my future vlogging for your and I will not give up on my dreams because you are unable and creative enough to come up with your hopes and dreams. Until the day comes that she learns that this unhealthy behaviour is that, unhealthy, I will continue to write my blog posts that I hope can help her through her own personal demons as well as helping others.
I don’t hate this person, nor could I ever bring myself to hate another human being. Hate is just too strong of a feeling of an emotion and unless you have done some serious harm or damage to me, I don’t see the point in wasting/feeling such a strong emotion. I do Hope though. I hope she gets the help she needs, that she realises what she has done is wrong, that you don’t have to pretend to be someone else to have people like or accept you. Honestly picking me to copy from is probably the worst thing ANYONE could do. I’m no idol, I’m no inspiration, I’m a broken girl trying to make her own life, trying to figure out who she is, Taking back a life that mental health has overrules. My life is not a life you should copy, its one you should be learning from.
I know this post isn’t one of my typical posts and It’s incredibly short but the game is calling my name! I’ll have two new posts up this week, one of them will be a review post!
Thank you for taking the time to read and I hope you all have a lovely week ahead of you. To anyone out there struggling, please don’t be afraid to reach out and contact me, it doesn’t matter what I am doing, if you need someone to be there, to offer a non judgemental conversation or listening ear, then that’s what I will provide. No should have to suffer alone and I can promise you, you aren’t alone, all you need to do is take that first little step into reaching out & ask/seek help.