Some BIG news! – A Journey into Motherhood

I have some exciting and life changing news that I wanted to share with you all. It’s taken me a little while for it to sink in and we’ve kept things quiet to allow us some time to let our news sink in fully, as it came as quite a shock to say the least.

My sweet-pea, first baby scan, scan photo, motherhood
My sweet-pea, first baby scan

But my big news is….

I’m Pregnant!

Yup, you read that right.

I have little bun in the oven, as they say.

When I first found out I didn’t what to think or what to feel. I did end up telling one of my younger sisters first, before telling my partner an hour later, and then my mum. I’ll never forget my mums reaction, she was SO happy, she threw her hands in their and gave a little dance in celebration. I really wished I’d decided to record telling her but there were so many thoughts and emotions running through me that I just wanted to get it out, to tell those close to me. I really needed support and my family is my best support system.

So far pregnancy has been well and truly hitting me hard. I’ve been hit really bad with “Morning” sickness, It’s not been pleasant. I’m still struggling with my eating disorder which comes with it own challenges and even more thoughts that fill my head. Am I eating enough? Is my body strong enough to carry this pregnancy through? Am I giving my baby everything he/she needs? Am I doing enough to see this pregnancy through healthy? Those of which are just the tip of the iceberg of thoughts that barge through my mind on a daily basis.

But despite the bad, despite my own fears, baby is doing amazing and I’m really excited to go through this new journey of motherhood.

For so many reasons I thought this day would never come and although I would have perhaps waited a little longer…. If I had the choice, I’d have things go exactly the same way. I wouldn’t change a thing.

This baby doesn’t know it yet, but he/she is already So loved and adored by many. She/he is already bringing a little light into people life, it certainly has in mine.

scan photo, baby, baby scan, first scan, motherhood
My sweet-pea, first baby scan

I went for my very first scan on 2nd March and I can’t even describe to you what it felt like when I saw that little baby pop up on the monitor or how relieved I was when they told me there was only one in there! I had a little cry to myself in the car while looking at the scan photos. I just felt this huge wave of relief while me and partner sat there watching our little baby kick her/his legs out and show herself/himself off a little (although he/she was being stubborn and refusing to move from her/his spot so we couldn’t get any face shots, all side shots while she/he floated upside down in the lower part of my belly).

I can’t wait for this “morning” sickness to fade, for the exhaustion to ease up so I can get to enjoy more of the experience of being pregnant because I won’t lie, so far it just feels as though I’m walking around with a constant cold of some kind between the “morning” sickness and constantly feeling drained.

I still almost can’t believe it, I find myself constantly staring at my scan photos. I can’t wait to find out the gender and more so I just can’t wait to have this little baby out into the world and into my arms.

Motherhood is my new journey, I’m scared, I’m excited and I’m so ready. More so than I thought I would ever be. And thankful to have my soul mate right there along side me through it all.

Its going to be crazy & amazing going from just me and him (and our cats) to having this tiny little human to care for and look after.

my little sweet-pea

Author: littleTinkablee

Hi!🤗 I'm Tinka, the author to this crazy messy blog! I have passions for many things in life including helping others when I can, writing, taking photo's, animals, the outdoors and so much more! Unfortunately, I have suffered from severe anxiety for over 6 years as well as other mental health illnesses which can really hinder and obscure my path to a better future. But after years of being locked away, I'm ready to fight back, I'm ready to do all it takes to break out of this cycle that my mental illnesses have help cause. I'm ready to break away from all my unhealthy habits and away from all the mental blocks I have. For me, the start of breaking out of my bad cycle was to start this Blog in 2019 in the hopes of taking myself out of my comfort zone and getting myself out into the world more (even if it is via the internet). I document my ups and downs with my mental illnesses, as well as some of my daily going on and lifestyle tips. I like to believe there is a little something of everything to read on my blog and I do try to cater to a wide range audience so as not to limit my blog. I want to thank you all for the support you have and continue to show me and my blog! And as always I hope that you can take something good way from reading my blog

10 thoughts on “Some BIG news! – A Journey into Motherhood”

  1. I am 28 weeks pregnant and you have 28 weeks to go 😂 When do you find out if you are having a boy or a girl or do you want it to be a surprise? Praying that you have a healthy pregnancy and everything goes smoothly 🙂 The morning sickness is very, very real especially in first trimester 😂

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    1. That’s amazing! Congratulations❣️ do you know what the gender is yet? I don’t yet but I will be able to in a few weeks and I can not wait (though I have convinced myself this one’s a girl haha)
      The morning sickness has been kicking my *ss 😂 I hope you’ve been having and continue having a healthy pregnancy❣️💖

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      1. Yes, we are having a boy! I really wanted another girl (we have a 4 year old daughter) and she’s not too impressed that she’s getting a little brother 😂 I keep telling her that she’s lucky – I’m an only child and would give anything for a sibling. I’m due May 28, 2021.

        I had morning sickness with both pregnancies but I never threw up, thank goodness. Cheers to a happy, healthy pregnancy! 😊💕

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        1. Awe how amazing! Haha I’m sure she’ll come round to having a brother eventually😂 they aren’t all bad haha I have two older ones and a younger one, I made mine play dolls with me and dress up😂
          Congratulations on having a little boy! ❤️

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