January 2021 – A New Journey

January 2021 – A New Journey

2020 has been an insane year for all of us. It has thrown some real challenges and devastation upon us while testing us all to our limits. A lot of people’s mental health have been affected more so than ever, people have lost their jobs, their homes, their sense of security and safety.

The whole world went into a worldwide scare as we faced a worldwide pandemic due to an out break of coronavirus, and with some of leaders failing to guide us through such a stressful and unusual event it has made getting through this pandemic a lot harder and a lot more frightening as some countries have been left feeling as though they are fending for themselves due to the lack of guidance and control over the situation. Some of us have lost family members, friends and other loved ones from the hit of COVID-19

We have all been tested to our limits in our owns ways and have had to face many challenges that I’m sure a lot of us could have done without. Not only has this pandemic affected us all on a personal level but it has also affected us all on a business level. With countries going into lockdown in the hopes of containing and stopping the spread of the virus a lot of people had to leave their jobs, a lot of people got fired from their jobs as a lot of businesses failed to meet their money target for this year. Businesses were forced to close their doors temporarily in the hopes of containing the virus, thinking…well more like hoping, that they would only need to do that for a couple of weeks. However for some unfortunate and struggling businesses, they have been forced to close their doors forever putting them and their employees out of work.

The NHS and Key-Workers have been pushed more than ever also. With NHS workers/nurses/doctors risking their lives to help save our loved ones lives there have been a lot of show of support of them (but yet still not enough) as we thank them for working tirelessly to keep our loved ones alive and healthy.

People who never even considered dying their hair have gone as far as to self-bleach and dye their own with the trending hashtag (At the time) #Lockdownhair. I myself have been hit with a new hairstyle, a much shorter one I never thought I’d be brave enough to try out, despite my reservations and fears about short hair I have been finding a new hidden confidence in myself that never would have.

businesses, workers and just about everyone around the world started relying on the internet, on social media, group chats, and home deliveries to get them through this confusing COVID-19 pandemic.

As we had to learn to distance ourselves physically from those we love, we reached out to the internet and social media in the hopes of trying to replace that lost and lonely feeling. Divorces have gone up, relationships (friendships, platonic, Family relationships, romantic) have been tried and tested, and a lot of people unfortunately got to experience a little of what a lot of us who have suffered from mental health most of our lives are coping. Mental Health has become more talked about more now than ever, with thousands having their sense of safety and socialism taken from them and their world turned around.

To put it simply, 2020 has been one hell of a year, a year that has changed the world.

Like everyone else I and my family (close and distant) have not been without our own struggles, but as always they have shown a strength that I can only hope to/have when facing my own challenges.

2020 became such a unsuspected, challenging, frightening and unknown year. And despite that I am honestly looking forward to starting 2021 journey. The lows and the highs. After this year, if I have taken anything from it, it’s not to underestimate yourself and that there isn’t a thing you can’t get through as long as you have the right people trying to support and help you. It’s also not to take health for granted and I’m more determined than I was back when I started my yoga journey in 2019 while starting my recovery journey with my eating disorder to keep my focus on my health.

With that being said, This year brought me into a whole new journey of healing, one I feel will bring its own adventures as it follows me into the New Year of 2021.

I have no clue what this year holds for me or for you! But I have a feeling this year is going to be the year of self-discovery for everyone.

despite the load of shit-storms we’ve had thrown our way this year, that isn’t to say that 2020 didn’t come with its good moments.

Here in Liverpool, we never got a our snowy christmas day. However, we were graced in the wee little hours of the morning with a small blanket of snow. It wasn’t enough to get some “Winter Wonderland” though I did try (they didn’t turn out any good) I did end up accidently capturing a little blurry snowflake on my camera!

The sky has been incredible this year! And I’ve found myself looking to the sky more this year than my entire life. Just check out some of the incredible “shows” our beautiful sky has put on for us this year: –

  • Series of supermoons.
  • Moon passes in front of Mars.
  • Meteor shower drought comes to an end.
  • Lunar eclipse on the Fourth of July.
  • Jupiter, Saturn to take the spotlight in the summer sky.
  • Perseid meteor shower.
  • Blue moon to glow in Halloween sky.
  • Moonless sky in store for peak of the Geminids
  • Total solar eclipse to darken sky over South America
  • Super conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn

I was not only lucky enough to witness most of these, I was lucky enough to capture all the supermoons on my camera!

I, myself, have overcome personal challenges, faced some frightening situations and through it all I have found a deeper strength in myself. I have found that I can still somehow function through a LOT of stress and a LOT of worrying.

I’ve been able to keep my anxiety down, my eating and weight is still all over the place but I’m happy to say that I’ve at least managed not to lose anymore. I’ve still managed my solo or couple walks in the wooded areas away from other people and I’ve spends a lot of this year starting a few new online courses and taking pictures, making whatever memories I could.

I strayed away from my blog despite my efforts, I found myself with little interest in writing this year, so much so that I still have a few new empty notebooks laying around! Usually they are half way filled with words by the end of a year however I don’t feel any loss towards my lack of enthusiasm for writing this year. I’ve seen it as a pausing point, a point in my life where I needed to take a bigger step away from social media and away from my blog and focus on my present life and the world moving around me not around the internet.

2020 has brought with it an inner peace within myself that has changed so much the way I think and look at situations and for that, pushing aside the bad of the year, I am grateful for the challenges and I can’t say that I took nothing away from 2020 because I’ve taken more from that year than I have any other.

I’m more focused on myself, on my emotions, my passions, my body, my hunger, my abilities and health thanks to 2020, my eyes are open to more positive things and I’m able to recognise a bad situation and detach myself from it rather than invest my emotions into it, just as I am now able to recognise a positive moment and keep it at the forefront of my mind ready to get through another difficult situation.

I understand just how scary, devastating and unusual this year has been. I’m sure its made it difficult for a lot of people to push past all the bad, to focus on the little bits of good that has come from this year.

But I want you all to try, try to think of one or two good things that happened this year and hold on to them, let those good moments be your guide through the bad moments. And remember that our mental state and the well beings of ourselves and loved ones are what truly matters. Count your small blessings, enjoy and soak yourself in the little moments and don’t take for granted the things others do for us to keep us going, don’t take for granted those in your life and more than anything never let the dark moments become every moment. There is light in every dark situation, no matter how tiny it maybe.

I don’t know what struggles you face in your life but I believe in you! If we can make it through a year like 2020, we can make it through anything.

I hope you all had a magical christmas and a lovely new year.

And with that I’ll wish you all lovely 2021. Bye, bye 2020. I’m ready to start and get through 2021 adventures!

Hidden Beauty – Spring Equinox 2020

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Hidden Beauty – Spring Equinox 2020

March 20th 2020, marked the first day of spring (also known as Spring equinox or Vernal equinox) and the last day of Winter.

Coronavirus has taken over, it’s all anyone can talk about, think about and worry about. Because of this we are forgetting and missing a lot of life’s simple pleasures/beauty while we are all caught up in today’s panic, such as Spring.

Spring season is consider the period between the Spring Equinox and the Summer Solstice. Spring is also typically consider the season of rebirth, of blossoming new life, new beginnings and growth.

With the scare of the Coronavirus at the forefront of everyone’s mind it seems as though the world has stopped moving, and almost anything goes. But lucky for us, mother nature never takes any breaks and we are once again graced with another beautiful seasonal spring equinox.

Although the world is becoming more and more unknown and scary, we can still all take a moment, to take a deep breath and open our eyes to the simple beauty that surrounds us.

A lot of people love the Spring time because its usually the season where all the baby animals are born and running around and enjoying their new life. And because our fields, gardens are patches of greenery start to sprout flowers and other beautiful plants.

Essentially, The Earth comes to life during the Spring Equinox.

Birds are making themselves known, bee’s are starting to get to work on all those beautiful flower’s sprouting up, squirrels are running around playing with each other and climbing the tree’s. With less people loitering the streets/parks the animals and wild life are trying to reclaim their places.


Not only that but due to the lock-down a LOT of people are now focusing a lot of their time and attention onto their gardens (since that’s where they are spending a lot of their time these days) and the streets have never looked more bright or colourful than they do now.

Not only that but our sunrises/sunsets are becoming more colourful and breathtaking.


Get A Different Name Day

Today marks ‘Get A Different Name Day’ and for those who are only hearing about it now, have no fear! I will explain briefly what exactly ‘Get A Different Name Day’ is and why I am taking part/spending the day to celebrate this day.

Have you ever thought about what life would be like if your parents named you by another name? What if they chose that first name they were thinking of? What if they chose the family name? what if?…

I, personally have never liked the sound of my own name, when growing up it never did me any favours. I remember spending a good year or two stuck doing P.E with the boys because my name had been mistakenly placed in the boys register instead of the girls one – during one of many school moves – and for some reason they refused to change me over (not that it really mattered as I only ever brought in my P.E kit for badminton – it was the only thing I enjoyed and I was really good at it).

I’ve just always seen my name as too… manly? or something… it didn’t help any that my mum got my name from a baby boy’s book. She wanted a boy…she didn’t get a boy but decided to stick with the name anyway.

I have always begged my mum to change my name or to allow me to change my name but I’ve always been refused, as I got older the simple fact that I know how hurt my mum would be if I got my name changed is the only thing that has prevented me from permanently and officially changing my name. And even then I have to wrestle with myself not to get it changed.

So what exactly is Get a Different Name Day?


Get a Different Name Day is one of those bizarre informal/unofficial holidays that seem to have grown in numbers since the internet became such a world wide obsession.

Get a different name day falls on 13th February of every year. This unofficial holiday is copyrighted and was created by Ruth & Tom Roy, the founders of WellCat/com. Who took pity on the millions of us who for whatever reason hate their names.

Our name is not ever something we get to choose or have a say in, it is usually something that is bestowed upon us before or not long after our birth. It’s something that our parents decide for us.

There are a lot of people out there who are content and even like their name but there are a few (such as myself) who aren’t as fortunate to fall in love with their name or have one that fits who they are and their personality and some just have names that are too long or too hard to pronounce and others are just displeased with their names for no particular reason.

If you are someone who does’t like their birth name then Get A Different Name Day’ as an opportunity to change your name to whatever you wish. You don’t have to go out and legally change your name. You could just as simply inform your friends and family about your new name and that you expect them to address you by said new name.

It can be your middle name, a nickname or a completely new name instead of your birth name.

ONE YEAR BLOGIVERSARY

Well, It happened!

I’m not quite sure how, but I made it to a year of blogging!

Today marks my one year Blogiversary and I couldn’t be more proud of myself for sticking with it and making it to my first year of blogging.

My blog wouldn’t be a year old today if it wasn’t for my readers, supporters and followers. Starting a blog hasn’t been easy, and there were moments where I wanted to give in and delete my blog but with the encouragement and support from friends, family, my readers/followers and other amazing bloggers I toughed it out and stuck with it.

And it feels so incredible to be able to say that my blog is now a year old!

Despite the bad start to the year I did manage to find a few good moments through all the bad and even got out a bit to take a few photos. I’ve taken a LOT of photos of the moon already this year as well as of my cats that you can find over on my facebook pages:

  • LittleTinkablee Blog
  • Tinkablee Animal Kingdom

I have a lot planned this year and for the following ones a head so I am going to be slightly distance from social media for a little bit however I’ll still be engaging and my messages are still open to those who need it.

I couldn’t thank you all enough for sticking with me and reading through my posts and I hope that you enjoy or find help through my future posts.

The end of a decade and the start of a new. Goodbye 2019 and hello 2020

It’s so insane to think that we can now close the book on one decade and say goodbye to yet another year so we can start anew for the following decade ahead of us and the years that follow. I never thought I’d make it this far and honestly I’m in shock and proud of myself that I’ve reached this far. I’m proud of my family and everything they have survived this decade and in awe of their ability to pick themselves back up and keep going.

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Goodbye 2019

2019 for me has been one of my most peaceful years (mentally…) that I’ve had in far too long a time. Don’t get me wrong it’s still be crazy and I’ve still had a lot of really bad moments but for the first time in my life I was able to focus on the good moments too, enough that the bad hasn’t overridden the good.

If I were to comment on this decade, I would tell you it’s been one of the most insane, crazy, happy, intense, heart-breaking, nerve-wrecking and life changing decade I hope to ever experience.


This year on February 4th 2019 I start this blog! After a year of second guessing and going back on myself I finally went through with what I wanted to do and set out to “write my dreams” instead of letting my mental illnesses win and overrule my life. And it all started with this blog.

Since blogging I’ve been opened to so many amazing opportunities that had been closed off to me before. I’ve gotten to speak to some incredible authors and have come across some amazing book series (one of which helped bring me out of my year long reading slump: Heavenward by Olga Gibbs) and my review you can read here on my blog!

I can’t wait to see what opportunities are brought to me in 2020!

2019 blogging has also helped me with my own mental state, it’s helped me to understand a some of my mental illnesses and open my eyes to things I never even thought about when thinking about my mental illness. It’s also helped me to learn and understand about other’s and all the other different types of mental illnesses there are out there.

It’s been a great way to track and log my progress and although I’ve not done as much of that as I had planned last year, this year, I’m hoping to change that and open up more through my blog.

I’ve learnt new things about myself this year that I don’t think I would have ever realised or noticed before without starting this blog, It’s helped in my confidence and its made me even more motivated to write my novel, to go out there and become a psychologist and to have my blog running steadily through that time. I’m more motivated now than ever to go after what I want no matter what’s standing in my way, I know my worth and value and nothing and nobody is going to stop me for achieving the future I want for myself.

I even went on a few adventures with my love and little Toby (one of which I think I’ve written about on my blog) and even had Bella and Brad join a few (Bella is one of Toby’s best friends!). On one of my adventures with Dan we came across a really beautiful butterfly that even kept still long enough for me to snap a few picture of it! It was such a relaxing and wonderful day of walking about in nature and away from people.


2019 wasn’t just a great year for the start of my blogging life, it also became a great year for my health. I became a year free of smoking, I had gotten into my yoga practice a lot more, started a few new workouts and I had even managed to start eating more and gained weight for the first time in a years. Overall this year I have felt the healthiest I have in far too long.

Mental Health Matters

My mental health has also improved a little in 2019, I noticed I’ve had less break-down, less blow outs, I’ve managed to find a new coping method that helps me to manage my emotions a little better. They still get the better of me and I’ve not gotten complete control over them, but now I FINALLY have a way to gain at least a little control which is a big step for me.

2019 brought me inner peace.

2019 I learnt to let go of a lot of my negative emotions and thinking. I finally feel a peaceful in myself that I’ve been trying desperately to obtain for what seems like my whole life, I’m not feeling that constant war within myself that I’m usually battling with on a daily basis, I haven’t managed to rid myself of it completely but the feeling is there less now. Because of this a lot of my personal relationships have gotten better and I wouldn’t change that fact for the world.

unfortunately as usual with me I’ve ‘fallen off the wagon’ as the saying has goes and I’ve gotten myself stuck into a few old bad habits again, I’ve stopped eating and lost the weight I gained and due to my not eating I’ve decided to stop all exercising – not wanting to risk anymore weight loss than I’m already experiencing.

A lot happened in 2019:

  • Loki was born had his first Halloween and Christmas with us.
  • My sister and mum had big operations and are still recovering incredibly well from them.
  • I attempted Camp NaNoWriMo2019
  • My Kitt-Katt became a little senor cat this year
  • My little sister turn 16!
  • My little brother turned 13!
  • I did yoga with my little sister
  • I took my sisters to a Pusheen event in early celebration of my little sister’s 16th birthday
  • I was finally able to dye my last little sister’s hair for the first time. (It’s like a right of passage in my house)
  • I found out that the vets didn’t neuter one of my cats properly and caught him spraying out in the garden (luckily he’s too much of a good boy to do it in the house)
  • I also found out that my little Bear – who is two now – is Oreo’s son
  • I still haven’t gotten over how much Gizmo looks like her dad (my kitt-katt)
  • I met Cloud (My friends new kitten)
  • Spirit went to a new home and became best friends with his new brother Cloud
  • Spirit passed away a few months before Christmas
  • I’ve connected with myself
  • I’ve dyed my hair purple
  • Was blonde for a day
  • Then dyed my hair orange
  • Worked on myself and actually made progress!
  • I’ve baked a little in 2019
  • Spent many late nights working on blog post
  • Spent many more late nights working on my novel
  • My mums cat went missing for a week so I spent that week climbing over her garden wall into the wilderness behind calling her, leaving food, tuna, treats, and her cat carry (she’s obsessed with it for some reason) until she finally made her way back home to my mum.
  • I’ve learnt a lot about myself in 2019
  • Experienced some extremely frosty mornings but no snow…
  • And entered the 7th new year with my Dan

Now that we are in 2020 it’s time to give up those bad habits again and focus on my health. I plan on getting back into my yoga practice as well as my work outs and hopefully eating a bit more food on a regular basis.

I also have plans to get out a bit more and to complete another online course for my psychology. My mum got me a new camera for Christmas so I’ll probably be taking a LOT of pictures while testing it out and getting a feel for it (I can’t wait! I’ve already used it a few times for some cat pictures and moon pictures – I a little moon mad :P).

I plan on taking this year a little slower in the hopes that it will help me work through my messy mind and bring to life all the ideas that are cramped inside. I have a lot of hope for this decade, I lot things I’m hoping to see come to pass.

I also have a few book reviews that I was meant to get through in 2019 but either unfortunately forgot about them (it’s what happens if I’m sent them online rather than in physical form – unfortunately its out of sight out of mind with me as my memory is awful – or simply just haven’t been able to get round to them yet but I’m not taking on any more book review until I’ve gotten through and posted the ones that I was hoping to have out before the start of 2020.

Before I leave this post and wish you all a great year and a great start to a new decade I just want to thank everyone who has helped me, supported me and stuck by me through these months. I’ve almost made it to a full year of blogging! And it wouldn’t have happened with out your support and encouragement and there are just a few blogs I want to leave everyone with the option of checking out.

These bloggers are some phenomenal, creative and inspiring people that has helped me through my own journey of blogging, mental wellness and recovery and I know that a lot of my viewers would either love or benefit hugely from checking these bloggers blogs out. –

That Autistic Fit Chick

The Mini Smallholder

Nyxie’s Nook

Readers Enjoy Authors’ Dreams

Wellbean blog

Fraser’s Fun house

BestieTalks

Pages Places & Plates

ColourlsSimplyArt

TimeToTalk

Inching Forwards

Leooooo – The Anxious Teacher

Unwanted Life

TRJ Blog – The Ray journey

Jack Deyes

And with that list of amazing blogger, I hope you all have a happy, safe and peaceful year and thank you all again for sticking with me through all my inconsistency.

Goodbye Purple Hair

If you follow me on my Facebook page, twitter or Instagram them I’m sure you are all aware of my love for purple and more so my purple hair.

Purple was the first EVER colour I went when I was finally allowed to dye it and I fell in love with it. I never really had a favourite colour I just used to really like black, red, purple, silver and gold at the time, all equally. But then as my love for the other colours faded into the background, my love for purple never.

I have dyed my hair MANY colours over the last 8 or so years and Also find myself going back to purple. I used to try and fall back on red but I’ve decided that’s my bad luck hair colour and I don’t think I will ever go red ever again.

The last couple of months have been tough on me mentally as I’m trying to adjust to a new body change, while still trying to adjust to this new, healthier lifestyle I’ve set for myself and decided a change in colour was needed before I dyed my hair a different purple.

I’ve pretty much have been every colour other than Orange, Yellow and grey/silver and since we are in Autumn I thought I would throw out my fears of what I would look like with orange hair and finally dyed my hair orange!

I won’t lie, I had WAYYYY more confidence when I dyed my hair electric green back when I was in collage than I did when I dyed my hair orange. But the results? I’m pleasantly surprised! I actually really love it and I think I’m going to stay orange for a while (and not just because my hair needs a major break/time to heal).

As nervous as I was, I’m now happy to say, “Goodbye, purple!”

I’m feeling very Autumnal now with my orange hair.

Do you have dyed hair? Or maybe want to dye your hair? Comment below as I’d love to know!

Blogtober is here

It’s the 1st October and the start of Blogtober!

All through out September I have been trying my hardest to prepare myself for this years October Blogtober! This will be the first time I am joining in with others across the world in Blogtober and I have to say that I am a mixture of dread and excitement.

I dread finding/coming up with content for this October. I struggle to get a single post out weekly and now I’m partaking in a challenge that requires not only to get my content out EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. but I have to make sure I am able to create content for 31 days. Which considering I usually only get around 6 – 8 posts out everyone month, on a good month it’s a big jump to getting 31 posts out in just one month.

But I am excited to see what I am able to come up with and create under pressure. So this is the only warning I’m going to be giving…, if you think the way I run my blog is messy now…. October is going to be showing a whole new side to unorganised and messy because as hard as I may try to plan things out, nothing every works out in my favour, plans go wrong and the best thing I can do is to just wing it.

I know a lot of people may consider me a little insane for taking up this challenge, but honestly, I’ve never claimed to be sane and there’s nothing I love more than a challenge. If I fail, I’ll celebrate what I have managed to achieve and make notes of things I can improve and If I succeed in finishing this challenge, I can celebrate a full win.

I’ve had quite a few people ask me what is ‘Blogtober’? Which I won’t lie, it baffled me as I assumed this was a big blogger thing (being new to the blogging work, my blog isn’t even a year old yet!) but there are still quite a few people who are unaware of it. So I thought I’d explain a little in this post what Blogtober is.

What Is Blogtober?

Blogtober is where blogger from around the world undertake the challenge of creating and posting out new content in October for the full 31 days. Yes, that does include weekends.

From doing my research there doesn’t seem to be any rules to this other than to just create, create and create! So get as creative and adventures as you like.

*Little note*
There is a Blogtober Facebook group that you can join if you’d like a bit of interaction with other bloggers throughout the challenge. If you’re going it alone on social media, don’t forget to use the hashtags. Each year has it’s own hashtag, last year’s was, ‘#Blogtober18’ this year’s will be, ‘#Blogtober19’ and next year’s will be ‘#Blogtober20’ and so forth.

Over the next following days I will be attempting to post at least one blog post per day onto my blog, some will be Autumn themed, Halloween themed, Mental Health related, book reviews, product reviews, updates, lifestyle, baking, pets and so much more!

As much as I am dreading the stress (Honestly I’ve been stressed about this since I decided to take on the challenge) I’m so super excited to see how create I can be under a little pressure.

I’d love to know if you plan on joining in with Blogtober and remember if you miss a day or two, don’t beat yourself up over it, keep pushing forward and see just what you can achieve when you don’t allow yourself to give up and give in to the temptation of negative thinking. If you can’t complete the full 31 days, give yourself a pat on the back, be proud of the days you were able to do and make notes on what went wrong so you can work towards higher goals.

With that being said, I hope to hear from those taking part in Blogtober and more than anything I hope everyone enjoys their October, and has a wonderful Halloween ahead of them.

Before I go, I want to leave you with a few words…

There’s always a lesson to be learned when things doesn’t seem it’s brightest and has hard as it can be, sometimes you have to be your light. You have to be your sun on a cloudy day.

Writing for myself Again

*Blogger Note*
I have never posted a post this late before but before going to bed I wanted to clear a few things up and thank the wonderful people that I have met on twitter for all they encouraging words and amazing support.

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Writing for myself again

As bloggers we want to see our blogs grow and thrive. We all have our own reasoning for wanting this but for me, bigger numbers/bigger viewers mean more people that I could possible help through my blog.

But, while trying to figure out ways to make my blog more attractive for other potential viewers and more interesting I’ve been majorly putting my mental health to the test because the truth is? I’m not all that interesting. I’m useless with technology and find that it annoys me more than I enjoy using it. I have a genuine fear of using technology outside, I won’t use card machines, I now won’t handle a bus ticket on the Arriva Buses as you know have to scan your ticket (I used to avoid getting the card for that reason), I won’t use a self serve till… there’s a lot I won’t do due to fear of it. What if I use it wrong? What if doesn’t work for me and everyone is staring at me? I HATE technology,

When I’m not house bound, I’m out early hours in the morning, or late at night on a walk with my boyfriend and Toby or sometimes we’ll go to a close friends house I have a family member out with me so I can do shopping.

The truth is despite how hard I try and fight my anxiety and all the overwhelming feelings that follow…It still wins. I’ve not figured out how to beat it, I’ve figured out how to have a few good days, sure but. But mostly? I’m riddle with anxiety to the point I am still throwing up in the middle of the days, my legs still go weak, my stomach still turns in knots and it makes it easier for depression to come along and sink it teeth into me.

If you follow me on twitter then you may or may not have seen my tweet that I posted out, one that I do apologise for. I usually try to stray away from social media when I start feeling like that as I don’t really want to be posting my negativity all out there, I want my accounts and blog to be a positive experience for everyone as I know how negative and toxic social media can be.

When my mental illnesses take over, my mental health suffers greatly for it, I end up in a vicious thought loop cycle. I feel so experienced in life, so boring and as though me and my blog has nothing to offer anyone that I get myself questioning why I’m even bothering? Am I even helping anyone? How can I even help people? These are only my words, my thoughts, my feelings…. It’s not anything special and it certainly isn’t anything interesting.

I had a little melt down, I don’t want to go into many details, but after I posted my tweet I retreated to my yoga in the hopes that it would help me…it didn’t. Neither playing with my cats or listening to music or reading, I just couldn’t stop my brain from doing over time enough to focus on the words.

This year I had a focus, a goals for myself. To change my lifestyle in the hopes of creating a more positive life or more positive days. But the past month or two I have failed in doing that.

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My eating has gone back down, I no longer snack, the drinks I’m drinking are more unhealthy than I am drinking healthy drinks, the healthiest drink I’m popping into my body is a glass of water and a glass or two of some kind of smoothie. My weight is back down more again, and what progress I was making in my work outs have all but disappeared because I all but stopped doing them. The only thing I have really kept on top of is my yoga but even that I have had to cut back on due to the lack of eating, so my energy levels have been really low lately.

And my family has been under extreme pressure with my little sister’s back surgery (and although she has/is in a lot of pain, she has been a little trooper), my mums one on the way soon and bunch of other things in the mix, its just been really hard to stay motivated and uplifted or positive.

I’ll be taking the weekend to regroup and refocus on myself and my blog. There are a few changes I want to make to it. I’ll still be doing my book reviews and product reviews but I’m going to be viewing them more as a hobby and I’m going to back to writing for me for a little while.

I’ll also be studying extra hard on my online college course while starting a new college course about crystal healing that I’m really excited about taking.

I’ll still be giving out tester candles to anyone who requests ones (for a free and honest review of course) .

My ‘Let’s Talk Pet Series’ and ‘My Bully Experience’ is still on going to anyone who wants their pets featured on my blog or to share their bully experience (to help inspire and show others that bullies never win, that trolls never win and that all their hate only strives our need to achieve our goals that much more stronger).

To submit your bully experience simply;
Email me at: Littletinkable@gmail.com
-Add your name
– short Bio of you
– Your bully experience
– And any pictures you would like added
-And any social media handles you’d like shared

If you aren’t a blogger wanting to send your bully experience all you have to do email me;
-Your name if you wish
– A short Bio (if you wish)
-Your bully experience
– Any pictures you would like added

If you are a writer or creator of ANY kind wanting to share your bully experience on Littletinkablee then simply;
– Your Name
– A short Bio
-Your Bully experience
– Any Social media handles or websites you’d like me to link back to
-And any pictures you would like added

Please note that If you wish me to post your story/ies anonymously then please skipped the steps adding your information and simple send your story over with any pictures you would like added.

To submit your pet story simply;
Email me at Littletinkable@gmail.com;
-Add your name
– A short Bio of yourself
– Any websites and/or social media handles
– Your pet Story
-And of course some pet pictures.

If you aren’t a blogger wanting to send your pet story all you have to do is;
-Your name if you wish
-Your Pet Story
– And some pet pictures

If you are a writer or creator of ANY kind wanting to share your pet story on Littletinkablee then simply;
– A short Bio
– Any Social media handles or websites you’d like me to link back to
-Your name
-And of course pictures!

Please note that If you wish me to post your story/ies anonymously then please skipped the steps adding your information and simple send your story over with any pictures you would like added.

Also My GIVEAWAY is still running and will continue running until Thursday, Friday I’ll pick the winner and Monday I’ll post it off to the lucky person! See my post – Some Bookish/Candle news‘ for more details.

I want to thank everyone who has messaged me and sent me words of encouragement and uplifting/ kind words, I can’t express what that means to me and I’ll forever be grateful for all the kind and amazing people I have met through my short but continued blogging journey. I hope you all have had a better Friday than I did and have a lovely weekends ahead.
Goodnight!

Getting Our Monday Motivation On Can be Hard

(I originally started typing this post out before my yoga this morning, however I got very distracted, then even more distracted -I’m easily distracted, one of my many talents 😛 – and completely forgot I was in the middle of writing this post!)


“Hope is brightest when it dawns from fears.”

– Walter Scott
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Take a moment

Getting our Monday motivation on can be incredibly difficult, especially if you are anything like me and tend to experience the “Monday Blues” no matter how sunny it is outside. However where I have been making it my mission to change the way I think, in the hopes of changing the way I feel and function, I’ve been trying to find ways/things I can do to change when I am feeling…Off.

The main thing I have implemented into my daily life in the hopes of keeping myself, somewhat balanced in myself, is morning yoga. Every morning I am trying to get through a yoga routine. You can read in more depths the benefits I gain from doing morning yoga by clicking, HERE. Last week I changed my yoga routine up a bit to something a little more challenging.

I’ve also cut down my chocolate intake, cut down on my cups of tea and more or less no longer drink coffee. I’m still missing breakfast, and this month hasn’t been my proudest for my weight as I’ve lost quiet a bit of weight again, instead of gaining. I’m taking steps to getting my body and myself used to breakfast. I’m both disappointed and…a little relieved? I’m still fighting through and figuring out my emotions when it comes to self changes, both within myself and my body.

This, Monday, I have managed to get through one of my yoga practice and already feel 10x better. I plan on having a bowl of fruit and a homemade smoothie for breakfast this morning. I’m also going to be spending the say making more candles and wax melts, ready for my release date.

Tomorrow I’ll be posting my long awaited hair clip review for @Linziclip which I am super excited to share with you all. I’ve never really been one for playing around with my hair, because its weird thickness and texture and add in that it has a mind of its own, products, hair clips, straighteners or curlers, nothing ever worked on it! That was of course until I came across Linziclip hair clamp clips!

I’m also starting each day off with a positive, a motivational and inspirational quote, to get the positive vibes kick started and as soon as the weather is less…wet, I’ll be able to go on more walks and jogs.

Over the weekend I spent a day babysitting and decided to bake with the kids to keep them entertained and to give them something else that they can learn to do and feel a sense of accomplishment from, not to mention baking is just so much fun! And you get a tasty treat at the end of it! This weekend we decided to make a colourful unicorn themed cake, not only did it taste amazing, but it looked amazing too! I couldn’t be prouder of them for the cake they created! I barely had to do anything, I mainly just stood (sang along with songs) and supervised them and handled the oven part. (pictures of the cake below!)

Besides baking cakes with kids, my little sister has taken on my love for baking and when I went to see my mother the other day I was greeted to a home baked brownie, that tasted better than any store bought brownie you’ve ever come across, nothing will beat a home baked desert (other than home cooked food).

I have a lot to get through today but I’m also going to be making a stronger point to take little breaks, to do things differently and take a step back when necessary. When blogging you can come across some amazing people! But it can also unfortunately lead you to some… trouble people.

This year since starting my blog, my 6 to 7 year long internet troll has been trying to take on some of my traits, some of my personality, she has take my ideas and ran with them herself, she has gotten her family and friends and I assume “partner” too, to stalk my social medias as well as my blog posts. She has copied my life from the highs all the way down to the lows, she has turned my positives into negatives and taken my negatives and used them for her own personal gain an attention. However I have not let her or her crazy and her unhealthy obsession with me and my life get to me, I am still pursuing MY dreams and creating the life I WANT. And through continuing creating the life I want, I hope that she see that trying to be someone else doesn’t full fill you or give you the things you seek.

Being true to yourself takes courage and I hope that some day you’ll gain the courage to be true to yourself, rather than living behind a mask that is my life. But just know that I will not be stopping my blog because of you, I will not delete my social media because of you, I will not stop my future vlogging for your and I will not give up on my dreams because you are unable and creative enough to come up with your hopes and dreams. Until the day comes that she learns that this unhealthy behaviour is that, unhealthy, I will continue to write my blog posts that I hope can help her through her own personal demons as well as helping others.

I don’t hate this person, nor could I ever bring myself to hate another human being. Hate is just too strong of a feeling of an emotion and unless you have done some serious harm or damage to me, I don’t see the point in wasting/feeling such a strong emotion. I do Hope though. I hope she gets the help she needs, that she realises what she has done is wrong, that you don’t have to pretend to be someone else to have people like or accept you. Honestly picking me to copy from is probably the worst thing ANYONE could do. I’m no idol, I’m no inspiration, I’m a broken girl trying to make her own life, trying to figure out who she is, Taking back a life that mental health has overrules. My life is not a life you should copy, its one you should be learning from.

I know this post isn’t one of my typical posts and It’s incredibly short but the game is calling my name! I’ll have two new posts up this week, one of them will be a review post!

Thank you for taking the time to read and I hope you all have a lovely week ahead of you. To anyone out there struggling, please don’t be afraid to reach out and contact me, it doesn’t matter what I am doing, if you need someone to be there, to offer a non judgemental conversation or listening ear, then that’s what I will provide. No should have to suffer alone and I can promise you, you aren’t alone, all you need to do is take that first little step into reaching out & ask/seek help.

Wait, It’s July? You must be Julying!

Where did June go? I swear I blinked and it’s July!

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1st July 2019

When a new month hits, so do new goals. Over the past couple of months, really, my mental health has been winning the upper hand but I’m still continuing to fight back with any means necessary. While it has been succeeding in pulling me down again, I’ve really become less engaging and I’ve been feeling a bit disconnected from everything to be honest. From my blog, social media, my life…everything.

And I don’t have much hopes at the moment that my feelings are going to change as July is going to become a incredibly difficult month for my family as both my mum and little sister have operations this month, my sister’s a little more extreme than my mums. A lot of my effort will be going to helping care for my family.

However, that doesn’t mean that I haven’t spent all of June preparing and getting ready to throw some exciting things your way! Such as the following below:

  • My ‘LittleTinkablee Anxiety” Candles will be ready for Purchase on 20th July.
  • I have some homemade bookmarks that will be available for purchase on 30th July.
  • I have SO many book reviews coming your way.
  • I have a Hair clip review to share with you all.
  • Yoga posts!
  • I have a new post coming up all to do with jars!
  • I have a new post about cats coming your way.
  • I’ll be doing my ‘Lets Talk Pets’ Series every Friday’s and Thursday’s (Email me at Littletinkable@gmail.com if you would like to share your pet story)
  • I have a harry potter AND an all bookish Giveaway announcement on 4th July
  • I’ll be starting my “My bully experience” again, every Thursday (Email me if you’d like to participate!)
  • More mental health related posts
  • And of course the spur of the moment/ a few little rambling posts.

Besides doing a whole lot of planning, June wasn’t that bad of a month really. My little sister turn the big Sweet Sixteen! How the time flies! I still remember waking up early on her second birthday to run down stairs and give her my special/favourite sparkly blue teddy (Even then I had a feel she would be drawn sparkly things!) that was given to me by my older sister when she was 14 maybe 15 years old.

Just before her 16th birthday me and my other younger sister decide to take her out somewhere special, my sister LOVES anything to do with Pusheen, how could she not? It’s (in her words) a cute “Derpy” cat. And so when my sister found out that Pusheen was doing a Live tour and coming to Liverpool…Well it’s safe to say that we were able to pack down our anxiety and other problems so we could take our sister out and enjoy the day, you can read all about it here: Pusheen On Tour.

We also ate some Dr Pepper Candy Floss!

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Dr Pepper Candy Floss

Also my heart, the love of my life and my forever person turned 22 this year and now I’m only a month behind him, how crazy is that?! Years seems to be flying by lately and it’s really got me thinking about a lot of things. I wrote him a birthday message on my blog as a way for not only me but for my blog to wish him a BIG happy birthday. “A Happy Birthday Message To My Love.”

Heavenward - Hallow
Heavenward – Hallow

My, Hallow book arrived! And has made me even more excited to see my books by the amazingly talented Olga Gibbs. You can read my review of Olga Gibbs first book in ‘The Celestial Creatures’ series, Heavenward (which is currently free to purchase your e-copy). You can also check out my review of the second book Hallow and my review with the enchanting author herself! – An Interview with Olga Gibbs.

June Yoga Challenge
June Yoga Challenge

I also completed a 30 Day Yoga June challenge along with @Autisticfitchic and @Pagesplacesplates and @nyxiesnook who are three incredibly passonate -not to mention extraordinary- bloggers who too enjoy the benefits that yoga provides and I’m excited to be doing another challenge along side @Autisticfitchic and @Pagesplacesplates.

Yoga
Yoga

After being nominated 6 times for the 73 Vogue Question tag (which will be up later today) I have found out thanks to Pottermore I have been placed into the HufflePuff housing! So I guess I’m a fellow Hufflepuff for all those who ask 😀 .

I wrote a post on anxiety and the effect that it can have on our memory which you can check out here: Anxiety and Memory Loss.

I’ve done a guest post on Beforewegoblog.com called “Bookish Confessions.”

Emily Priest – Nicotine and Napalm

I also read and reviewed Emily’s enthralling and extraordinary compile of poems transformed into a beautiful and captivating book. You can check out my review and how to get your hands on your own copy of Emily’s amazing book, ‘Nicotine and Napalm.’

A sneak peak of one of Emily's poems from her book Nicotine and Napalm
A sneak peak of one of Emily’s poems from her book Nicotine and Napalm

I did my first ever Giveaway! One of a four part giveaway – (three more are coming your way).

Me and my boyfriend jogged half a mile and up a hill to capture and watch the first Summer Solstice sunset, the first sunset of summer! We brought Toby with us and all enjoyed a magical moment as the sky changed before our very eyes.

I have also done a tea syrup review for Yandra who not only bring to us all natural and lovely tasting tea but have now come out with a new syrup called ‘ Rose Simple’ Syrup. Check out my review HERE.

Yandra's Rose Simple Syrup
Yandra’s Rose Simple Syrup

Me and my boyfriend also rescued a baby hedgehog on the 19th June, it was so adorable! I now want a hedgehog. The poor thing was frozen in fear! So my boyfriend very carefully picked him/her up and we took it to a local park where we had spotted other hedgehogs and where there were wooded areas for it to hid in. We ended up nick naming him Sonic out of irony because of how slow he was, it took him a whole 10 minutes to walk off my boyfriend jacket and back onto solid land. Despite being scared at first, he very quickly got used to used to use and even poked his head out and starting sniffing us!

I bought two incredibly wonderful Lush Bath bombs (the dragon egg was by far my favourite smell!) One was so beautifully scented I have decided to live and die in that smell, my other bath bomb was just too pretty and glittery for words.

I also dyed my hair again! It’s still purple but now I have pink blended into the tips and it’s now kick started my addiction/obsession for dying my hair.

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A throwback selfie of me before I re-dyed my faded hair
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New hair

Despite all the challenges and struggles that July has to bring I am determined to make the most of this month. If you are struggling please, don’t be afraid to reach out to me, ALL conversations are confidential and non judgemental. If you aren’t looking for a conversation but rather just a listen ear, I con provide that for you too.

You can contact me here:

Facebook – LittleTinkablee

Twitter – @Tinkableeblog

Email – @Littletinkable@gmail.com

Pinterest – Littletinkablee

Instagram – @Littletinkablee

I hope you all have a great Monday and have an exceptional July a head of you!