Writing for myself Again

*Blogger Note*
I have never posted a post this late before but before going to bed I wanted to clear a few things up and thank the wonderful people that I have met on twitter for all they encouraging words and amazing support.

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Writing for myself again

As bloggers we want to see our blogs grow and thrive. We all have our own reasoning for wanting this but for me, bigger numbers/bigger viewers mean more people that I could possible help through my blog.

But, while trying to figure out ways to make my blog more attractive for other potential viewers and more interesting I’ve been majorly putting my mental health to the test because the truth is? I’m not all that interesting. I’m useless with technology and find that it annoys me more than I enjoy using it. I have a genuine fear of using technology outside, I won’t use card machines, I now won’t handle a bus ticket on the Arriva Buses as you know have to scan your ticket (I used to avoid getting the card for that reason), I won’t use a self serve till… there’s a lot I won’t do due to fear of it. What if I use it wrong? What if doesn’t work for me and everyone is staring at me? I HATE technology,

When I’m not house bound, I’m out early hours in the morning, or late at night on a walk with my boyfriend and Toby or sometimes we’ll go to a close friends house I have a family member out with me so I can do shopping.

The truth is despite how hard I try and fight my anxiety and all the overwhelming feelings that follow…It still wins. I’ve not figured out how to beat it, I’ve figured out how to have a few good days, sure but. But mostly? I’m riddle with anxiety to the point I am still throwing up in the middle of the days, my legs still go weak, my stomach still turns in knots and it makes it easier for depression to come along and sink it teeth into me.

If you follow me on twitter then you may or may not have seen my tweet that I posted out, one that I do apologise for. I usually try to stray away from social media when I start feeling like that as I don’t really want to be posting my negativity all out there, I want my accounts and blog to be a positive experience for everyone as I know how negative and toxic social media can be.

When my mental illnesses take over, my mental health suffers greatly for it, I end up in a vicious thought loop cycle. I feel so experienced in life, so boring and as though me and my blog has nothing to offer anyone that I get myself questioning why I’m even bothering? Am I even helping anyone? How can I even help people? These are only my words, my thoughts, my feelings…. It’s not anything special and it certainly isn’t anything interesting.

I had a little melt down, I don’t want to go into many details, but after I posted my tweet I retreated to my yoga in the hopes that it would help me…it didn’t. Neither playing with my cats or listening to music or reading, I just couldn’t stop my brain from doing over time enough to focus on the words.

This year I had a focus, a goals for myself. To change my lifestyle in the hopes of creating a more positive life or more positive days. But the past month or two I have failed in doing that.

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My eating has gone back down, I no longer snack, the drinks I’m drinking are more unhealthy than I am drinking healthy drinks, the healthiest drink I’m popping into my body is a glass of water and a glass or two of some kind of smoothie. My weight is back down more again, and what progress I was making in my work outs have all but disappeared because I all but stopped doing them. The only thing I have really kept on top of is my yoga but even that I have had to cut back on due to the lack of eating, so my energy levels have been really low lately.

And my family has been under extreme pressure with my little sister’s back surgery (and although she has/is in a lot of pain, she has been a little trooper), my mums one on the way soon and bunch of other things in the mix, its just been really hard to stay motivated and uplifted or positive.

I’ll be taking the weekend to regroup and refocus on myself and my blog. There are a few changes I want to make to it. I’ll still be doing my book reviews and product reviews but I’m going to be viewing them more as a hobby and I’m going to back to writing for me for a little while.

I’ll also be studying extra hard on my online college course while starting a new college course about crystal healing that I’m really excited about taking.

I’ll still be giving out tester candles to anyone who requests ones (for a free and honest review of course) .

My ‘Let’s Talk Pet Series’ and ‘My Bully Experience’ is still on going to anyone who wants their pets featured on my blog or to share their bully experience (to help inspire and show others that bullies never win, that trolls never win and that all their hate only strives our need to achieve our goals that much more stronger).

To submit your bully experience simply;
Email me at: Littletinkable@gmail.com
-Add your name
– short Bio of you
– Your bully experience
– And any pictures you would like added
-And any social media handles you’d like shared

If you aren’t a blogger wanting to send your bully experience all you have to do email me;
-Your name if you wish
– A short Bio (if you wish)
-Your bully experience
– Any pictures you would like added

If you are a writer or creator of ANY kind wanting to share your bully experience on Littletinkablee then simply;
– Your Name
– A short Bio
-Your Bully experience
– Any Social media handles or websites you’d like me to link back to
-And any pictures you would like added

Please note that If you wish me to post your story/ies anonymously then please skipped the steps adding your information and simple send your story over with any pictures you would like added.

To submit your pet story simply;
Email me at Littletinkable@gmail.com;
-Add your name
– A short Bio of yourself
– Any websites and/or social media handles
– Your pet Story
-And of course some pet pictures.

If you aren’t a blogger wanting to send your pet story all you have to do is;
-Your name if you wish
-Your Pet Story
– And some pet pictures

If you are a writer or creator of ANY kind wanting to share your pet story on Littletinkablee then simply;
– A short Bio
– Any Social media handles or websites you’d like me to link back to
-Your name
-And of course pictures!

Please note that If you wish me to post your story/ies anonymously then please skipped the steps adding your information and simple send your story over with any pictures you would like added.

Also My GIVEAWAY is still running and will continue running until Thursday, Friday I’ll pick the winner and Monday I’ll post it off to the lucky person! See my post – Some Bookish/Candle news‘ for more details.

I want to thank everyone who has messaged me and sent me words of encouragement and uplifting/ kind words, I can’t express what that means to me and I’ll forever be grateful for all the kind and amazing people I have met through my short but continued blogging journey. I hope you all have had a better Friday than I did and have a lovely weekends ahead.
Goodnight!

Blogging Recognition Award

So once again I have been nominated for a blogging award this time by the amazing and ever so lovely Amy (whom I couldn’t thank enough!!) owner of Sassycatlady.com, a fantastic blog that I highly recommend you guys check out!

What is the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ exactly?

For those who haven’t read my last one, or haven’t come across a post like this yet or have yet to be tagged, I’ll just state again what this award is all about.

So the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ is an award given out by other remarkable and phenomenal bloggers who have recognised the hard work and creativity/ originality sewn into their blog and blog posts.

Of course like with all these fun and amazing awards there are rules put in place to assure that it is fair, fun and that everyone get the recognition deserved.

The Rules


  • Write a blog post to show the award
  • Acknowledge the blogger who has nominated you
  • Give a brief story to why you started your blog
  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers
  • Nominate at least 11 other fantastic bloggers who deserve the award!

Why I started my blogging journey


Before I had started this blog this year (4th February 2019) I couldn’t even message someone without hugely regretting it later, re-reading over my messages, wanting to take everything letter back, even if the message said as little as ‘hi’. I couldn’t bring myself to engage with other people on any level. I would spend my nights unable to sleep all because I thought I’d be able to message or comment on someone’s post.

But then I start this blog and I’ve found myself connecting with so many amazing, creative and just phenomenal group of people. I’ve found other ways to manage my anxiety, found more understanding in my mental health & illness problems, but more than that I have found my little drive for life again. I’m fighting a lot of invisible battles, a lot of it is unknown to me (but not for long) and I want my struggles, pain, fears, frustration, joy, small achievements, growth, good and bad moments to show through my blog.

I want people to see that through all the trail and error, the hopelessness and fighting oneself you CAN chase after your dreams and you CAN SUCCESS through a lot of hard work and not giving up or giving in.

I want to give back as much as I can. Something my mother always taught me while growing up and something that has always stuck was to help others who need/seek help. They way she would reason it to me was, “If you were in their shoes, what would you want you to do?”

I want to help spread more awareness on mental health and mental illness. The way I have decided I can best do that at the moment is by sharing mine and my experience/battle with it.

I want to help aspire others to chase after their dream (or as I like to say ‘write their dream.’). I want to help spread more positivity through the internet and help block out the negative/bad. I want to help other’s achieve their dream anyway I can, even if that’s just through continued support.

I created this blog to helped other authors get their books out there, to spread the word, to read more and connect with other people. I created this blog to help battle my own demons and show that the struggles (although incredibly difficult) is worth it. I created this blog to connect with other mental health fighters/ bloggers, to connect with other people battling their own demons and help support them, while learning new things about and new ways to cope with my own. I created this blog to help not only myself but other people, whoever they may be, whatever they may be going through.

I created this blog so people can know there is someone out there who does care about them, that there is someone out there who isn’t judging them, who DOES care about their health (both mental and physical) and well-being, who is here willing to just listen and to HEAR them. I created this blog to help achieve my dream and to spread my words, my voice, my thoughts, my…mind.

I’ve created this blog for so many reason and as the months grow on, so do my reasons for blogging.

The two pieces of advice I have for new bloggers are:

Do your research! You may not know it when going into it but blogging takes a LOT of work, time and effort. So many components go into making up your blog, I thought I had researched what I needed to know…boy was I wrong.

Here are 11 magnificent bloggers (never placed down in any particular order as they are all equally stupendous in their own ways) who have managed to keep my spirits high and blogging experience a great one but also produce some incredibly interesting, creative, original and simply astounding blog posts.

@EzziesBookshelf
@TheAnxiousTeac2
@PositivelyASD
@Beautyofmychao1
@LovePopcorn6
@Jessling1205
@Mahikswordworld
@AnnahMariahRuby
@cats_herding
@UnwantedLife_Me
@frantasmagoria1

I would just like to thank you all for taking the time to read my post and I hope everyone has a lovely week :D.