January 2021 – A New Journey

January 2021 – A New Journey

2020 has been an insane year for all of us. It has thrown some real challenges and devastation upon us while testing us all to our limits. A lot of people’s mental health have been affected more so than ever, people have lost their jobs, their homes, their sense of security and safety.

The whole world went into a worldwide scare as we faced a worldwide pandemic due to an out break of coronavirus, and with some of leaders failing to guide us through such a stressful and unusual event it has made getting through this pandemic a lot harder and a lot more frightening as some countries have been left feeling as though they are fending for themselves due to the lack of guidance and control over the situation. Some of us have lost family members, friends and other loved ones from the hit of COVID-19

We have all been tested to our limits in our owns ways and have had to face many challenges that I’m sure a lot of us could have done without. Not only has this pandemic affected us all on a personal level but it has also affected us all on a business level. With countries going into lockdown in the hopes of containing and stopping the spread of the virus a lot of people had to leave their jobs, a lot of people got fired from their jobs as a lot of businesses failed to meet their money target for this year. Businesses were forced to close their doors temporarily in the hopes of containing the virus, thinking…well more like hoping, that they would only need to do that for a couple of weeks. However for some unfortunate and struggling businesses, they have been forced to close their doors forever putting them and their employees out of work.

The NHS and Key-Workers have been pushed more than ever also. With NHS workers/nurses/doctors risking their lives to help save our loved ones lives there have been a lot of show of support of them (but yet still not enough) as we thank them for working tirelessly to keep our loved ones alive and healthy.

People who never even considered dying their hair have gone as far as to self-bleach and dye their own with the trending hashtag (At the time) #Lockdownhair. I myself have been hit with a new hairstyle, a much shorter one I never thought I’d be brave enough to try out, despite my reservations and fears about short hair I have been finding a new hidden confidence in myself that never would have.

businesses, workers and just about everyone around the world started relying on the internet, on social media, group chats, and home deliveries to get them through this confusing COVID-19 pandemic.

As we had to learn to distance ourselves physically from those we love, we reached out to the internet and social media in the hopes of trying to replace that lost and lonely feeling. Divorces have gone up, relationships (friendships, platonic, Family relationships, romantic) have been tried and tested, and a lot of people unfortunately got to experience a little of what a lot of us who have suffered from mental health most of our lives are coping. Mental Health has become more talked about more now than ever, with thousands having their sense of safety and socialism taken from them and their world turned around.

To put it simply, 2020 has been one hell of a year, a year that has changed the world.

Like everyone else I and my family (close and distant) have not been without our own struggles, but as always they have shown a strength that I can only hope to/have when facing my own challenges.

2020 became such a unsuspected, challenging, frightening and unknown year. And despite that I am honestly looking forward to starting 2021 journey. The lows and the highs. After this year, if I have taken anything from it, it’s not to underestimate yourself and that there isn’t a thing you can’t get through as long as you have the right people trying to support and help you. It’s also not to take health for granted and I’m more determined than I was back when I started my yoga journey in 2019 while starting my recovery journey with my eating disorder to keep my focus on my health.

With that being said, This year brought me into a whole new journey of healing, one I feel will bring its own adventures as it follows me into the New Year of 2021.

I have no clue what this year holds for me or for you! But I have a feeling this year is going to be the year of self-discovery for everyone.

despite the load of shit-storms we’ve had thrown our way this year, that isn’t to say that 2020 didn’t come with its good moments.

Here in Liverpool, we never got a our snowy christmas day. However, we were graced in the wee little hours of the morning with a small blanket of snow. It wasn’t enough to get some “Winter Wonderland” though I did try (they didn’t turn out any good) I did end up accidently capturing a little blurry snowflake on my camera!

The sky has been incredible this year! And I’ve found myself looking to the sky more this year than my entire life. Just check out some of the incredible “shows” our beautiful sky has put on for us this year: –

  • Series of supermoons.
  • Moon passes in front of Mars.
  • Meteor shower drought comes to an end.
  • Lunar eclipse on the Fourth of July.
  • Jupiter, Saturn to take the spotlight in the summer sky.
  • Perseid meteor shower.
  • Blue moon to glow in Halloween sky.
  • Moonless sky in store for peak of the Geminids
  • Total solar eclipse to darken sky over South America
  • Super conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn

I was not only lucky enough to witness most of these, I was lucky enough to capture all the supermoons on my camera!

I, myself, have overcome personal challenges, faced some frightening situations and through it all I have found a deeper strength in myself. I have found that I can still somehow function through a LOT of stress and a LOT of worrying.

I’ve been able to keep my anxiety down, my eating and weight is still all over the place but I’m happy to say that I’ve at least managed not to lose anymore. I’ve still managed my solo or couple walks in the wooded areas away from other people and I’ve spends a lot of this year starting a few new online courses and taking pictures, making whatever memories I could.

I strayed away from my blog despite my efforts, I found myself with little interest in writing this year, so much so that I still have a few new empty notebooks laying around! Usually they are half way filled with words by the end of a year however I don’t feel any loss towards my lack of enthusiasm for writing this year. I’ve seen it as a pausing point, a point in my life where I needed to take a bigger step away from social media and away from my blog and focus on my present life and the world moving around me not around the internet.

2020 has brought with it an inner peace within myself that has changed so much the way I think and look at situations and for that, pushing aside the bad of the year, I am grateful for the challenges and I can’t say that I took nothing away from 2020 because I’ve taken more from that year than I have any other.

I’m more focused on myself, on my emotions, my passions, my body, my hunger, my abilities and health thanks to 2020, my eyes are open to more positive things and I’m able to recognise a bad situation and detach myself from it rather than invest my emotions into it, just as I am now able to recognise a positive moment and keep it at the forefront of my mind ready to get through another difficult situation.

I understand just how scary, devastating and unusual this year has been. I’m sure its made it difficult for a lot of people to push past all the bad, to focus on the little bits of good that has come from this year.

But I want you all to try, try to think of one or two good things that happened this year and hold on to them, let those good moments be your guide through the bad moments. And remember that our mental state and the well beings of ourselves and loved ones are what truly matters. Count your small blessings, enjoy and soak yourself in the little moments and don’t take for granted the things others do for us to keep us going, don’t take for granted those in your life and more than anything never let the dark moments become every moment. There is light in every dark situation, no matter how tiny it maybe.

I don’t know what struggles you face in your life but I believe in you! If we can make it through a year like 2020, we can make it through anything.

I hope you all had a magical christmas and a lovely new year.

And with that I’ll wish you all lovely 2021. Bye, bye 2020. I’m ready to start and get through 2021 adventures!

March 8th – International Women’s Day 2020

Today is March 8th, International Women’s Day. Today is the first day since entering this new decade that we get to celebrate International Women’s Day!

What is International Women’s Day, you ask?


International Women’s Day is a Day devoted to the movement for women’s rights.

Commemoration of international women’s day today ranges from being a public holiday in some countries to being a to being largely ignored elsewhere. In some places, it is a day of protest; in others, it is a day that celebrates womanhood.

in 1910, German delegates Clara Zetkin, Kate Dunker and others proposed at the International Socialist Women’s conference that a “special women Day” be organized annually.

In 1917, after women gained suffrage in Soviet Russia, March 8th became a national holiday there and after that? The day was then predominantly celebrated by socialist movement and communist countries until it was then adopted by the feminist movement in about 1976.

The united Nation began celebrating international women day in the international women’s year, 1975. In 1977, the untied Nation General Assembly invited member states to proclaim March 8th as the UN (United Nations) day for women’s right and world peace

Get A Different Name Day

Today marks ‘Get A Different Name Day’ and for those who are only hearing about it now, have no fear! I will explain briefly what exactly ‘Get A Different Name Day’ is and why I am taking part/spending the day to celebrate this day.

Have you ever thought about what life would be like if your parents named you by another name? What if they chose that first name they were thinking of? What if they chose the family name? what if?…

I, personally have never liked the sound of my own name, when growing up it never did me any favours. I remember spending a good year or two stuck doing P.E with the boys because my name had been mistakenly placed in the boys register instead of the girls one – during one of many school moves – and for some reason they refused to change me over (not that it really mattered as I only ever brought in my P.E kit for badminton – it was the only thing I enjoyed and I was really good at it).

I’ve just always seen my name as too… manly? or something… it didn’t help any that my mum got my name from a baby boy’s book. She wanted a boy…she didn’t get a boy but decided to stick with the name anyway.

I have always begged my mum to change my name or to allow me to change my name but I’ve always been refused, as I got older the simple fact that I know how hurt my mum would be if I got my name changed is the only thing that has prevented me from permanently and officially changing my name. And even then I have to wrestle with myself not to get it changed.

So what exactly is Get a Different Name Day?


Get a Different Name Day is one of those bizarre informal/unofficial holidays that seem to have grown in numbers since the internet became such a world wide obsession.

Get a different name day falls on 13th February of every year. This unofficial holiday is copyrighted and was created by Ruth & Tom Roy, the founders of WellCat/com. Who took pity on the millions of us who for whatever reason hate their names.

Our name is not ever something we get to choose or have a say in, it is usually something that is bestowed upon us before or not long after our birth. It’s something that our parents decide for us.

There are a lot of people out there who are content and even like their name but there are a few (such as myself) who aren’t as fortunate to fall in love with their name or have one that fits who they are and their personality and some just have names that are too long or too hard to pronounce and others are just displeased with their names for no particular reason.

If you are someone who does’t like their birth name then Get A Different Name Day’ as an opportunity to change your name to whatever you wish. You don’t have to go out and legally change your name. You could just as simply inform your friends and family about your new name and that you expect them to address you by said new name.

It can be your middle name, a nickname or a completely new name instead of your birth name.

The end of a decade and the start of a new. Goodbye 2019 and hello 2020

It’s so insane to think that we can now close the book on one decade and say goodbye to yet another year so we can start anew for the following decade ahead of us and the years that follow. I never thought I’d make it this far and honestly I’m in shock and proud of myself that I’ve reached this far. I’m proud of my family and everything they have survived this decade and in awe of their ability to pick themselves back up and keep going.

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Goodbye 2019

2019 for me has been one of my most peaceful years (mentally…) that I’ve had in far too long a time. Don’t get me wrong it’s still be crazy and I’ve still had a lot of really bad moments but for the first time in my life I was able to focus on the good moments too, enough that the bad hasn’t overridden the good.

If I were to comment on this decade, I would tell you it’s been one of the most insane, crazy, happy, intense, heart-breaking, nerve-wrecking and life changing decade I hope to ever experience.


This year on February 4th 2019 I start this blog! After a year of second guessing and going back on myself I finally went through with what I wanted to do and set out to “write my dreams” instead of letting my mental illnesses win and overrule my life. And it all started with this blog.

Since blogging I’ve been opened to so many amazing opportunities that had been closed off to me before. I’ve gotten to speak to some incredible authors and have come across some amazing book series (one of which helped bring me out of my year long reading slump: Heavenward by Olga Gibbs) and my review you can read here on my blog!

I can’t wait to see what opportunities are brought to me in 2020!

2019 blogging has also helped me with my own mental state, it’s helped me to understand a some of my mental illnesses and open my eyes to things I never even thought about when thinking about my mental illness. It’s also helped me to learn and understand about other’s and all the other different types of mental illnesses there are out there.

It’s been a great way to track and log my progress and although I’ve not done as much of that as I had planned last year, this year, I’m hoping to change that and open up more through my blog.

I’ve learnt new things about myself this year that I don’t think I would have ever realised or noticed before without starting this blog, It’s helped in my confidence and its made me even more motivated to write my novel, to go out there and become a psychologist and to have my blog running steadily through that time. I’m more motivated now than ever to go after what I want no matter what’s standing in my way, I know my worth and value and nothing and nobody is going to stop me for achieving the future I want for myself.

I even went on a few adventures with my love and little Toby (one of which I think I’ve written about on my blog) and even had Bella and Brad join a few (Bella is one of Toby’s best friends!). On one of my adventures with Dan we came across a really beautiful butterfly that even kept still long enough for me to snap a few picture of it! It was such a relaxing and wonderful day of walking about in nature and away from people.


2019 wasn’t just a great year for the start of my blogging life, it also became a great year for my health. I became a year free of smoking, I had gotten into my yoga practice a lot more, started a few new workouts and I had even managed to start eating more and gained weight for the first time in a years. Overall this year I have felt the healthiest I have in far too long.

Mental Health Matters

My mental health has also improved a little in 2019, I noticed I’ve had less break-down, less blow outs, I’ve managed to find a new coping method that helps me to manage my emotions a little better. They still get the better of me and I’ve not gotten complete control over them, but now I FINALLY have a way to gain at least a little control which is a big step for me.

2019 brought me inner peace.

2019 I learnt to let go of a lot of my negative emotions and thinking. I finally feel a peaceful in myself that I’ve been trying desperately to obtain for what seems like my whole life, I’m not feeling that constant war within myself that I’m usually battling with on a daily basis, I haven’t managed to rid myself of it completely but the feeling is there less now. Because of this a lot of my personal relationships have gotten better and I wouldn’t change that fact for the world.

unfortunately as usual with me I’ve ‘fallen off the wagon’ as the saying has goes and I’ve gotten myself stuck into a few old bad habits again, I’ve stopped eating and lost the weight I gained and due to my not eating I’ve decided to stop all exercising – not wanting to risk anymore weight loss than I’m already experiencing.

A lot happened in 2019:

  • Loki was born had his first Halloween and Christmas with us.
  • My sister and mum had big operations and are still recovering incredibly well from them.
  • I attempted Camp NaNoWriMo2019
  • My Kitt-Katt became a little senor cat this year
  • My little sister turn 16!
  • My little brother turned 13!
  • I did yoga with my little sister
  • I took my sisters to a Pusheen event in early celebration of my little sister’s 16th birthday
  • I was finally able to dye my last little sister’s hair for the first time. (It’s like a right of passage in my house)
  • I found out that the vets didn’t neuter one of my cats properly and caught him spraying out in the garden (luckily he’s too much of a good boy to do it in the house)
  • I also found out that my little Bear – who is two now – is Oreo’s son
  • I still haven’t gotten over how much Gizmo looks like her dad (my kitt-katt)
  • I met Cloud (My friends new kitten)
  • Spirit went to a new home and became best friends with his new brother Cloud
  • Spirit passed away a few months before Christmas
  • I’ve connected with myself
  • I’ve dyed my hair purple
  • Was blonde for a day
  • Then dyed my hair orange
  • Worked on myself and actually made progress!
  • I’ve baked a little in 2019
  • Spent many late nights working on blog post
  • Spent many more late nights working on my novel
  • My mums cat went missing for a week so I spent that week climbing over her garden wall into the wilderness behind calling her, leaving food, tuna, treats, and her cat carry (she’s obsessed with it for some reason) until she finally made her way back home to my mum.
  • I’ve learnt a lot about myself in 2019
  • Experienced some extremely frosty mornings but no snow…
  • And entered the 7th new year with my Dan

Now that we are in 2020 it’s time to give up those bad habits again and focus on my health. I plan on getting back into my yoga practice as well as my work outs and hopefully eating a bit more food on a regular basis.

I also have plans to get out a bit more and to complete another online course for my psychology. My mum got me a new camera for Christmas so I’ll probably be taking a LOT of pictures while testing it out and getting a feel for it (I can’t wait! I’ve already used it a few times for some cat pictures and moon pictures – I a little moon mad :P).

I plan on taking this year a little slower in the hopes that it will help me work through my messy mind and bring to life all the ideas that are cramped inside. I have a lot of hope for this decade, I lot things I’m hoping to see come to pass.

I also have a few book reviews that I was meant to get through in 2019 but either unfortunately forgot about them (it’s what happens if I’m sent them online rather than in physical form – unfortunately its out of sight out of mind with me as my memory is awful – or simply just haven’t been able to get round to them yet but I’m not taking on any more book review until I’ve gotten through and posted the ones that I was hoping to have out before the start of 2020.

Before I leave this post and wish you all a great year and a great start to a new decade I just want to thank everyone who has helped me, supported me and stuck by me through these months. I’ve almost made it to a full year of blogging! And it wouldn’t have happened with out your support and encouragement and there are just a few blogs I want to leave everyone with the option of checking out.

These bloggers are some phenomenal, creative and inspiring people that has helped me through my own journey of blogging, mental wellness and recovery and I know that a lot of my viewers would either love or benefit hugely from checking these bloggers blogs out. –

That Autistic Fit Chick

The Mini Smallholder

Nyxie’s Nook

Readers Enjoy Authors’ Dreams

Wellbean blog

Fraser’s Fun house

BestieTalks

Pages Places & Plates

ColourlsSimplyArt

TimeToTalk

Inching Forwards

Leooooo – The Anxious Teacher

Unwanted Life

TRJ Blog – The Ray journey

Jack Deyes

And with that list of amazing blogger, I hope you all have a happy, safe and peaceful year and thank you all again for sticking with me through all my inconsistency.

Autumn/October Quotes

I don’t know about you but I for one love quotes!

You can find a quote on pretty much anything these days and there are so many amazing, inspiring and captivating quotes that I write down daily in the hopes of applying a little bit of knowledge into my own life.

I have two (almost 3) books FULL to the brim with quotes that I have been collecting since I was 14 and I thought today I would share some of my Autumn/October quotes with you all that I personally loved for one reason or another.

Autumn Quotes

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Autumn Days

Autumn shows us how beautiful it is to let things go.

I love this quote a lot because there have been a lot of things that I have needed to let go of in order to carry out my future the way I want. There have been people I have had to loose, emotions I’ve had to overcome and a lot of negative energy that I had to learn to let go of.

Autumn is as joyful and sweet as an untimely end.

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A walk in the park

Autumn is the hardest season. The leaves are all falling, and they’re falling like they’re falling in love with the ground.

Andrea Gibson

Every leaf speaks bliss to me, fluttering from the Autumn tree.

Emily Bronte

Notice that Autumn is more the season of the soul than of nature.

Friedrich Nietzche

I hope I can be the Autumn leaf, who looked at the sky and lived. And when it was time to leave, gracefully it knew life was a gift.

Dodinsky

The heart of Autumn must have broken here, and poured it’s treasure upon the leaves.

Charlott Bates

Autumn is the season to find contentment at home by paying attention to what we already have.

And the sun took a step back, the leaves lulled themselves to sleep and Autumn was awakened.

Raquel Franco

I can smell Autumn dancing in the breeze. The sweet chill of pumpkin, and crisp sun burnt leaves.

Ann Drake

Autumn is the mellower season, and what we lose in flowers we more than gain in fruits.

Samuel Butler

Autumn carries more gold in its pocket than all the other seasons.

Jim Bishop

No Spring nor Summer beauty hath such grace as I have seen in one autumnal face.

John Donne

And All at once, Summer collapsed into fall.

Oscar Wilde

Dancing of the Autumn leaves on a surface of a lake is a dream we see when we are awake.

Mehmet Murat Ildan

A fallen leaf is nothing more than a Summer’s wave goodbye.

Unkown

The tree’s are about to show us how lovely it is to let the dead things go.

Unknown

Anyone who thinks fallen leaves are dead has never watched them dancing on a windy day.

Shira Tamir

Wild is the music of the autumnal winds amongst the faded woods.

William Wordswoth

Fall has always been my favourite season. The time when everything burst with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale

Lauren Destefano

Autumn mornings; Sunshine and crisp air, birds and calmness, year’s end and day’s beginnings.

Terri Guillemets

Autumn leaves are falling, filling up the street; golden colours on the lawn, nature’s trick or treat.

Rusty Fischer

There is something incredibly nostalgic and significant about the annual cascade of Autumn leaves.

Joe L. Wheeler

Listen! The win is rising, and the air is wild with leaves, we have had our Summer evenings, now for October eves.

Humbert Wolfe

Autumn… the year’s last loveliest smile.

William Cullent Bryant

Steam rising underneath a canopy of whispering, changing aspens; Starlight in the clear, dark night, and wondrous beauty in every direction. If only all could feel this way, to be so captured and enthralled with Autumn.

Donna Lynnn Hope

It was a beautiful bright Autumn day, with air like cider and a sky so blue you could drown in it.

Diana Gabaldon, Outlander

October Quotes


October’s poplars are flaming torches lighting the way to Winter.

Nova Blair

October is the fallen leaf, but it is also a wider horizon more clearly seen. It is the distant hills once more in sight, and the enduring constellations above them once again.

Hal Borland

October had the tremendous possibility. The summer’s oppressive heat was a distant memory, and the golden leaves promised the world full of beautiful adventures. They made me believe in miracles.

Sara Guillory

October was the least dependable of months… full of ghosts and shadows.

Joy Fielding

Let’s spark up October and make it better than September.

Uknown

The end of Summer is not the end of the world. Here’s to October….

A. A. Milne

October is crisp days and cool nights, a time to curl up around the dancing flames and sink into a good book.

John Sinor

October is a symphony of permanence and change.

Bonaro W. Overstreet

October is the opal month of the year. It is the mouth of glory, of ripeness. It is the picture month.

Henry Ward Beecher

Bittersweet October. The mellow, messy, leaf-kicking, perfect pause between the opposing miseries of Summer and Winter.

Carol Bishop Hipps

I wish every day was Saturday and every month was October.

Charmaine J. Forde

Ah, lovely October, as you usher in the season that awakens my soul, your awesome beauty compels my spirit to soar like a leaf caught in an Autumn breeze and my heart to sing like a heavenly choir.

Peggy Toney Horton

It must be October, the trees are falling away and showing their true colours.

Charmaine J. Forde

He loved October. Had always loved it. There was something sad and beautiful about it – the ending and beginning of things.

Jacqueline Woodson, If you come softly

I hope you have enjoyed these quotes and please feel free to add your favourites down in the comments!

Blogtober is here

It’s the 1st October and the start of Blogtober!

All through out September I have been trying my hardest to prepare myself for this years October Blogtober! This will be the first time I am joining in with others across the world in Blogtober and I have to say that I am a mixture of dread and excitement.

I dread finding/coming up with content for this October. I struggle to get a single post out weekly and now I’m partaking in a challenge that requires not only to get my content out EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. but I have to make sure I am able to create content for 31 days. Which considering I usually only get around 6 – 8 posts out everyone month, on a good month it’s a big jump to getting 31 posts out in just one month.

But I am excited to see what I am able to come up with and create under pressure. So this is the only warning I’m going to be giving…, if you think the way I run my blog is messy now…. October is going to be showing a whole new side to unorganised and messy because as hard as I may try to plan things out, nothing every works out in my favour, plans go wrong and the best thing I can do is to just wing it.

I know a lot of people may consider me a little insane for taking up this challenge, but honestly, I’ve never claimed to be sane and there’s nothing I love more than a challenge. If I fail, I’ll celebrate what I have managed to achieve and make notes of things I can improve and If I succeed in finishing this challenge, I can celebrate a full win.

I’ve had quite a few people ask me what is ‘Blogtober’? Which I won’t lie, it baffled me as I assumed this was a big blogger thing (being new to the blogging work, my blog isn’t even a year old yet!) but there are still quite a few people who are unaware of it. So I thought I’d explain a little in this post what Blogtober is.

What Is Blogtober?

Blogtober is where blogger from around the world undertake the challenge of creating and posting out new content in October for the full 31 days. Yes, that does include weekends.

From doing my research there doesn’t seem to be any rules to this other than to just create, create and create! So get as creative and adventures as you like.

*Little note*
There is a Blogtober Facebook group that you can join if you’d like a bit of interaction with other bloggers throughout the challenge. If you’re going it alone on social media, don’t forget to use the hashtags. Each year has it’s own hashtag, last year’s was, ‘#Blogtober18’ this year’s will be, ‘#Blogtober19’ and next year’s will be ‘#Blogtober20’ and so forth.

Over the next following days I will be attempting to post at least one blog post per day onto my blog, some will be Autumn themed, Halloween themed, Mental Health related, book reviews, product reviews, updates, lifestyle, baking, pets and so much more!

As much as I am dreading the stress (Honestly I’ve been stressed about this since I decided to take on the challenge) I’m so super excited to see how create I can be under a little pressure.

I’d love to know if you plan on joining in with Blogtober and remember if you miss a day or two, don’t beat yourself up over it, keep pushing forward and see just what you can achieve when you don’t allow yourself to give up and give in to the temptation of negative thinking. If you can’t complete the full 31 days, give yourself a pat on the back, be proud of the days you were able to do and make notes on what went wrong so you can work towards higher goals.

With that being said, I hope to hear from those taking part in Blogtober and more than anything I hope everyone enjoys their October, and has a wonderful Halloween ahead of them.

Before I go, I want to leave you with a few words…

There’s always a lesson to be learned when things doesn’t seem it’s brightest and has hard as it can be, sometimes you have to be your light. You have to be your sun on a cloudy day.

how to know when to come back from that much needed break

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How to know when to come back from that much-needed break

Taking a step back from blogging can be hard, it can be even harder to determine when you are meant to take that little break from blogging. But it can also be even harder to determine when to come back.

A couple of weeks ago, I did just that. I took my first break from blogging since I started it this year in February.

At first it killed me (maybe a little bit dramatic) but It did make me feel like a failure, like I wasn’t ready to deal with anything. Not even something that I wanted to do.

But the feelings didn’t last and the longer I took from blogging, the more I saw myself and my mental health improve. – you can read more about it here in my post called: Taking that un-guilty break from blogging.

Deciding to take that break wasn’t easy, I ran through a lot of emotions, put my loved ones through a lot of emotions too as well but I won’t take any of it back as I noticed and started believing in the benefits of taking a little break away from things.

But when deciding to take a break, how do we know its the right time to come back out of hiding and crawl back out from that rock we hide ourselves in while hiding from our own stress and responsibilities. How do you know when you are ready to see that light of day again?

In the end I decided that a week away is what I needed, that a week would help me…and it did. But how did I come to the conclusion that a week is exactly what I needed, how did I know that after a week I’d be ready to take on the world again?

Well the truth is, I didn’t know. In my head, a week seemed like a reasonable enough time to get my head back on my shoulders. A week seemed like a good amount of time to take off and forget there’s even a world around me.

Before taking the break I had decided already that if I were to go through with it, I’d only be able to keep myself away for a week. And I was right. The entire time I was a way I was itching to write something, to DO something but forced myself away.

Then I found myself back into my old routine of self loathing for a little while as I had nothing to pour my bad energy into, at first I even kept myself away from books knowing I’d end up picking one of the ones that needed reviewing and probably end up reviewing it! I had to set myself boundaries and rules and distract my brain with other things to occupy my time.

But by Sunday morning I knew I was ready to go back to blogging on Monday. My heart and my head felt lighter, my body was more relaxed and there was a little peacefulness inside of me for a little bit.

However it wasn’t only the feelings I had that made me believe it was time to come back out of “hiding”.

I had 2 signs show me that I was ready:

  1. Was the feelings I felt. The lightness in my heart, it made me feel as though I was ready to take on the pain of others, to help good people through bad times. I was ready to start chasing my dreams again, not keep fighting and not give up. I truly did feel as though I could take on the world with a genuine smile plastered to my face.
  2. The second came in the form of body weight. For the first time in I don’t even know how long to be honest, I am almost 7 stone! In the week I had taken for myself, I had put on weight without realising it which is a sign that my body is starting to realise when it’s hungry again, starting to unconsciously give me hunger signs back without me even realising it until I weighed myself.

Through this I realised that the break way did me a massive deal of good, but not once did I loose that passion to blog, to write, to help, to keep chasing my dreams.

It showed me that even when doing something we love, something we enjoy, we still need to remember to take a break away from it. Otherwise you’ll find yourself hating the very thing you used to love.

When I realised that just how light I felt, that’s when I knew it was time to come back. That I was ready to face whatever, and ready to keep fighting for the future I want, for the dreams I want to achieve.

And I know I’m not the only one capable of such things! Connecting with so many amazing bloggers/creators/business people/authors and following their journey helps in reminding me that everyone falls off the horse at some point, falling off doesn’t matter, what does is getting back on.

I want to thank you all for taking the time to read my post and I hope you are all having a wonderful week so far! And never forget that if ever you feel the need to talk to someone, my messages are always open to you. I will listen, I won’t judge you, and I can assure you that everything that is discussed between us will be discussed under confidentiality, not a single thing will be shared UNLESS I feel you are harm to yourself or others (but we know most cases that isn’t the case, but I do feel as though it’s something I should state).

Blogging Recognition Award

So once again I have been nominated for a blogging award this time by the amazing and ever so lovely Amy (whom I couldn’t thank enough!!) owner of Sassycatlady.com, a fantastic blog that I highly recommend you guys check out!

What is the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ exactly?

For those who haven’t read my last one, or haven’t come across a post like this yet or have yet to be tagged, I’ll just state again what this award is all about.

So the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ is an award given out by other remarkable and phenomenal bloggers who have recognised the hard work and creativity/ originality sewn into their blog and blog posts.

Of course like with all these fun and amazing awards there are rules put in place to assure that it is fair, fun and that everyone get the recognition deserved.

The Rules


  • Write a blog post to show the award
  • Acknowledge the blogger who has nominated you
  • Give a brief story to why you started your blog
  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers
  • Nominate at least 11 other fantastic bloggers who deserve the award!

Why I started my blogging journey


Before I had started this blog this year (4th February 2019) I couldn’t even message someone without hugely regretting it later, re-reading over my messages, wanting to take everything letter back, even if the message said as little as ‘hi’. I couldn’t bring myself to engage with other people on any level. I would spend my nights unable to sleep all because I thought I’d be able to message or comment on someone’s post.

But then I start this blog and I’ve found myself connecting with so many amazing, creative and just phenomenal group of people. I’ve found other ways to manage my anxiety, found more understanding in my mental health & illness problems, but more than that I have found my little drive for life again. I’m fighting a lot of invisible battles, a lot of it is unknown to me (but not for long) and I want my struggles, pain, fears, frustration, joy, small achievements, growth, good and bad moments to show through my blog.

I want people to see that through all the trail and error, the hopelessness and fighting oneself you CAN chase after your dreams and you CAN SUCCESS through a lot of hard work and not giving up or giving in.

I want to give back as much as I can. Something my mother always taught me while growing up and something that has always stuck was to help others who need/seek help. They way she would reason it to me was, “If you were in their shoes, what would you want you to do?”

I want to help spread more awareness on mental health and mental illness. The way I have decided I can best do that at the moment is by sharing mine and my experience/battle with it.

I want to help aspire others to chase after their dream (or as I like to say ‘write their dream.’). I want to help spread more positivity through the internet and help block out the negative/bad. I want to help other’s achieve their dream anyway I can, even if that’s just through continued support.

I created this blog to helped other authors get their books out there, to spread the word, to read more and connect with other people. I created this blog to help battle my own demons and show that the struggles (although incredibly difficult) is worth it. I created this blog to connect with other mental health fighters/ bloggers, to connect with other people battling their own demons and help support them, while learning new things about and new ways to cope with my own. I created this blog to help not only myself but other people, whoever they may be, whatever they may be going through.

I created this blog so people can know there is someone out there who does care about them, that there is someone out there who isn’t judging them, who DOES care about their health (both mental and physical) and well-being, who is here willing to just listen and to HEAR them. I created this blog to help achieve my dream and to spread my words, my voice, my thoughts, my…mind.

I’ve created this blog for so many reason and as the months grow on, so do my reasons for blogging.

The two pieces of advice I have for new bloggers are:

Do your research! You may not know it when going into it but blogging takes a LOT of work, time and effort. So many components go into making up your blog, I thought I had researched what I needed to know…boy was I wrong.

Here are 11 magnificent bloggers (never placed down in any particular order as they are all equally stupendous in their own ways) who have managed to keep my spirits high and blogging experience a great one but also produce some incredibly interesting, creative, original and simply astounding blog posts.

@EzziesBookshelf
@TheAnxiousTeac2
@PositivelyASD
@Beautyofmychao1
@LovePopcorn6
@Jessling1205
@Mahikswordworld
@AnnahMariahRuby
@cats_herding
@UnwantedLife_Me
@frantasmagoria1

I would just like to thank you all for taking the time to read my post and I hope everyone has a lovely week :D.

The Liebster Award

Before I start I just want to say thank you so much Hannah for nominating me for such a lovely award!

The Rules:

  • Simply, give a shout out to the blogger that nominated you for this award and make sure to link back to their blog
  • Write 11 facts about yourself
  • Don’t forget to post the award on your blog
  • And, answer the fun questions set up by the blogger amazing enough to nominate you
  • After that, Nominate 11 amazing bloggers who you feel deserve this award and don’t forget to tag them to help spread the blogging love

11 Random facts about me

I am deathly afraid of moths (though I feel as though I’ve mention this one somewhere before)

Until this year I never really watch T.V other than adult cartoons.

I’ll eat anything chocolate

I have three cats but want more in the future. (I highly doubt my boyfriend could cope with another cat in the around though!)

It’s no secret that I LOVE purple. But I also really like the colours Green and Blue.

I love books! But when I was a teen you would only ever find me reading things to do with vampires, werewolves and anything supernatural/paranormal.

I LOVE baking but HATE cooking.

I’m obsessed with anything tiny and/or cute. If it’s small I’ll more than likely impulse buy it and regret it later while taking loads of pictures of it…

When I was younger I used to refused to wear shoes unless they had some kind of heel that made that click/clomp sound as you walked by.

In truth, at heart, I’m still that little girl that only wants to wear loud high heels but now with my anxiety I can’t handle it as I feel it draws far too much attention to me.

And, lastly, I’m not at all an interesting person 🙂 .

11 Questions by Hannah

(1) If you could wake up in any fictional world, where would it be?

Any fictional world that has a unicorn. If I ever got to meet one, I’m pretty sure I’d become the happiest person alive.

(2) You can suddenly talk to just one species of animal, which would it be?

Umm, Cats. Purely because I’d really love to know what my cats are trying to say to me all the time.

(3) What’s the first memory you can remember?

Umm, being about five/six and running off to the skate park to do some skating, before venturing out into the “forbidden” Woods. I can’t really remember why everyone parents told us not to go in there, I loved it over there and even ended up creating my own little den for me and my friends when I was little older.

(4) What type of decor do you really need more of in your home/living space?

Books, I love decorating every room in books 😛 .

(5) You get a superpower of your choice, but you have to trade in three of your skills or positive traits. Which superpower do you get, and what do you trade for it in return?

I don’t trade anything or gain anything because my anxiety wouldn’t let me handle having a superpower.

(6) If you could only watch one movie ever again for the rest of your life, which would it be?

School of Rock without even thinking about it!

(7) Think back to your favourite place you’ve ever been. Where was it. and why did you love it so much?

The woods. Because it’s full of nature, animals, insects and critters, colours, peaceful sounds and usually no people.

(8) What are your most important goals that you’re focusing on right now?

  • Helping others through my blog
  • Writing my novel
  • Getting my candles out there into the world
  • Growing my blog and social media’s
  • Continue learning more about certain mental health topics
  • Gaining some control over my anxiety and depression
  • Keep focusing on getting healthier
  • Getting myself to the point I can up my yoga practice and do more demanding positions
  • Reconnecting with myself
  • Not to loose myself through my mental health again
  • Continue re-learning to do all the things I used to love, e.g, Reading a lot more, writing my own poems and lyrics again, drawing again, playing the piano/keyboard again and focusing more on the things that use to give me joy
  • And just in general to make it through each month without giving up or giving in.

(9) Would you rather never eat your favourite food again or never see your favourite animal again?

Never eat my favourite food again, I don’t have a great relationship with food as it is, but I do with my pets. I couldn’t bare not seeing them ever again!

(10) If you could learn any language, which would it be and why?

Gaelic, I’m not actually sure why.

(11) What’s a difficult lesson learnt in life that you’re now grateful for?

Not to judge a book by its cover. Which goes both ways, just because someone looks and acts good at first doesn’t necessarily mean they are and just because someone looks or acts bad doesn’t necessarily mean they are bad.

My 11 Questions for my nominee’s

What is you’re all time favourite book? Something you could read again and again?

  1. Do you chew your pens/pencils?
  2. What is your song of the week?
  3. What was your favourite childhood cartoon?
  4. What is your Chinese astrological sign?
  5. Have you ever been to a concert?
  6. What was your first ever concert?
  7. Are you named after anyone? (Example, family member, celebrity, Place).
  8. What was your favourite school subject?
  9. What is one hobby you would like to take?
  10. Do you any irrational fears?
  11. What are you looking forward to this year?

My Nominee’s

@KaraleeCupcake
@Jessling1205
@Missjoblogger
@Laurenreads1
@ChloechatsBlog
@BestieTalksBlog
@frantasmagoria
@jofalltradesb
@UnwantedLife_Me
@nyxiesnook
@Femenish

Blogger Recognition Award

I don’t know about the rest of you but I absolutely love all these blogger award posts, giving notice and recognition to all the amazing and creative blogger out there is really important! Especially because there are so many of us that sometimes we can feel as though out voice and our blog is being drowned out by the rest.

Blogger Recognition Award
Blogger Recognition Award

So when I receive an award for anything to do with my blog, I’m over the moon for the whole week! And, so, I would like to give the biggest of thanks to the wondrous and marvellous Charlotte owner of TimetoTalk Blog for making the rest of my week a great one!

Now in the past I have forgotten to respond to my rewards and I apologise immensely for that! With the start of my blog, candle making, planning more things to sell in hopes of creating a future business, writing my dreams, chasing my dreams, family/ life problems and my own mental health going down slightly that I just let a lot of things get away from me.

But that’s changing now!

From now own as soon as I am awarded such a lovely honour I’ll be writing half of the post out and then finishing it the day after. If there are any awards that you have so graciously awarded me please feel free to messages/dm me in anyway so that I can get it written up, link back to your blog and award the award to other creative/amazing/incredible bloggers!

So what is the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’?


So the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ is an award given out by other remarkable and phenomenal bloggers who have recognised the hard work and creativity/ originality sewn into their blog and blog posts.

Of course like with all these awards there are rules put in place to assure that it is fair, fun and that everyone get the recognition deserved.

So, what are the rules?


  • Write a blog post to show the award
  • Acknowledge the blogger who has nominated you
  • Give a brief story to why you started your blog
  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers
  • Nominate at least 11 other fantastic bloggers who deserve the award!

Why I started my blogging journey


I started my blog as a way to get my voice out there and heard, to be able to help more people while I overcome my own demons and struggles but also to share the journey of a lost girl writing her dream and fighting off invisible monsters.

I want my journey to be one that others can learn from and with my mental health taking over and ruling my life, I had finally decided that it was time to take it back… a blog seemed the safest way for me to achieve these things.

With a blog I can get my words out there, I can help SO many more people like me, I am able to write my dream of becoming an author while interacting with incredible authors, I’m able to express myself in ways I wasn’t.

All of this – Everything that I do for and with my blog, and everything that my blog gives back to me is the most enjoyment I have EVER gotten out of life. It’s the first time since I was 16 that I have allowed myself to truly interact with other people as well as the first time I have truly put myself out there.

So in short, I started my blog for me and others. I started my blog to help who ever I can, whenever I can but I also started my blog in the hopes of chasing my dreams, of achieving things I never believe I would be able to achieve while inspiring others to take back their life and fight for it, no matter how dark or gloomy it may be or seem at the time.


The two pieces of advice I have for new bloggers are:


Piece of Advice 1.
You, WILL get slow days, even months! But you must not let that get to you. Take a step back, post small and simple posts while you plan for bigger ones. Take a step back an remember what made you start your blog in the first place. You knew it wasn’t going to be easy, dreams never are! But the pain, the sweat, the tears and moments of defeat is so damn worth the reward.

Piece of Advice 2.
Never, EVER, forget the bloggers who first supported you. Who first help you grow, shared your posts, tweeted something for you or did anything to help support you. Those few first followers you gain are usually your most loyal ones, they are the ones who will stick with you through think and thin. When blog views are going down, they will be the ones there to help lift your spirit. To forget them would be like forgetting your best friend or pet.

Here are 11 magnificent bloggers (never placed down in any particular order as they are all equally stupendous in their own ways) who have managed to keep my spirits high and blogging experience a great one but also produce some incredibly interesting, creative, original and simply astounding blog posts.

@Meditativeo
@BooksNest
@PagePlacePlate
@BestieTalksblog
@Theanxiousteac2
@Nyxiesnook
@Thetinkerbug
@Theminismallho1
@ThePreppingWife
@Books_faith
@Inchingfowards

I would just like to thank you all for taking the time to read my post and I’m wishing everyone a lovely week :D.